epiphany

Hello, long time no see. Sharing things to the internet is scary but if we want to embrace positivity and good vibrations, then why not spread? Last winter, I finished community college with degree in Fine Arts. Also lease to the apartment I was living in, ended. Sadly everything comes to an end but that would mean, beginning of something new is coming.
I was blessed to have supportive friends. My friend P (basically my BFF), she let me stay at her place for free, save some money and figure my next move. While living with her, I worked full time, 6 days a week, 10 hours daily. It's not like I hate my job, but I sort of did and still do. I could give you 10 reasons why should I quit (health problems, can't achieve anything higher, no life) and 10 reasons why I should not quit (customers appreciated me, made others happy etc etc.) 
 Everyday, I could feel my anxiety growing bigger and bigger, a very tangled bundle of nerves. I truly don't know what to do with myself. My parents are very lenient people when it comes to school and work. Their advise was, "Do whatever makes you happy". I am not a fan of making decisions, but don't we all? I even have hard times picking an ice cream flavor! Long story short, I've never moved so much in my life within half a year. I technically was homeless, practically too. I shady dipped from my friend's house because I felt like I was abusing her hospitality. I moved to another friend's place because I'm a coward and a leech. A month later, it didn't work out so I finally moved to the cousins' house. I got my own bathroom. Of course I don't like living here either. I'm trying to find my own place, to feel like home. Home is where the heart is, right? What if there is no heart?? Then you're homeless, my friend. 
Anyways, after looking for my own place, this one crazy idea came up to me! Why don't I put everything behind and stay at my parents for a little. Then go to Vietnam, stay with my grandparents and travel around Vietnam? WHY NOT? Isn't this crazy? This is crazy. My goal is, I'll be in a totally different environment, everything strange will become familiar. Some inspiration will come around and I'll be able to function again. Maybe that will help me find what is the purpose of living.